The Way I See It

According to the Wikipedia Dictionary the following is the definition of the word assume.

“assume |əˈso͞om|
verb [ with obj. ]
1 suppose to be the case, without proof: you’re afraid of what people are going to assume about me | [ with clause ] : it is reasonable to assume that such changes have significant social effects | [ with obj. and infinitive ] : they were assumed to be foreign.
2 take or begin to have (power or responsibility): he assumed full responsibility for all organizational work.
• seize (power or control): the rebels assumed control of the capital.
3 take on (a specified quality, appearance, or extent): militant activity had assumed epidemic proportions.
• take on or adopt (a manner or identity), sometimes falsely: Oliver assumed an expression of penitence | she puts on a disguise, assumes a different persona, and cruises the squalid bars on the bad side of town | (as adj.assumed) : a man living under an assumed name.
DERIVATIVES
assumedly |-midlē| adverb
ORIGIN late Middle English: from Latin assumere, from ad- ‘toward’ + sumere ‘take.’”

My own copied definition of assume:  “Don’t make an ass out of u and me!”

Well I have been accused of “assuming” one too many times in my life and it has finally come to a head.  Most of my life I have had the uncanny ability to see things that most people don’t see.  Particularly, when it comes to feelings and the like.  My error, however, has been in stating what I see and because I express it people assume that I am assuming!  It has happened to me more times than I can count!  My other error is that I care deeply about people and their experiences.  I am an extreme empathic which leads to a complicated string of events that for some reason always seem to turn around and bite me directly in my proverbial ass!

Most people, I have observed, have difficulty facing their own fears nor do they want to face their own expectations about any given subject or event.  I suppose it is a predominant trait of human nature to be that way.  I, on the hand, lack that particular human trait.  I am constantly and consistently facing my own inhibitions such as: fears, negative or positive emotions, logic and analysis.  Naturally, I don’t like what I face any more than the next guy, but I do face them.  

The problem comes in when I can see negative things that others cannot realize within themselves and trying to be Ms. Nice Guy, I try to help them out by opening a discussion about what I sense are worries and/or problems that they may be facing or denying. Instead of taking my words at face value though, most people see what  i say as a projection of my own feelings when they are anything but my own feelings.  Ninety-nine percent of the time it results in the fact that I was right in what I stated, unfortunately, it does not present that way until much later on in the person’s life.  Once it does, they sometimes will admit to me that I was right, but most times they don’t, but instead act as though I never said a word. More often than not, what does occur when the incidence is happening is a statement that accuses me of being assuming.

It is not easy being me.  Trust me.  I swallow these accusations, even though I know within myself, that this statement about me is unjust and unfair. I’ve always felt it imperative that each person should own what they have done wrong. I attempt to keep myself beholding to that internal belief. Very often people will not tell you what they perceived as the wrongdoing, either they keep it a secret for a variety of reasons or they simply don’t want me to know. So a pre-conceived notion is created and because of that families stop talking, friends break apart, business partnerships fail and so much of a good life is lost. For me, I’d rather be given an opportunity to right a wrong I have done than not know I have done wrong in someone else’s eyes. 

Rarely, have I encountered a person who takes me at face value and realizes that what I have is insight.  That particular person or persons do not realize what a Godsend they are to me.  To acknowledge that I have an uncanny ability to foresee things that they have even yet to realize within themselves brings me total peace and comfort.  That is far and in-between within any of my circles.

So I am peeved today.  Extremely and utterly peeved.  Perhaps I am a rare breed and perhaps most people don’t want to believe that I am any different from they are and I have never really argued the point with anyone.  I am, however, sure that I am not the only person on this earth with this ability nor do I think I will be the last.  I do know quite emphatically that it is a fact of life.  I sometimes wish I was daft and didn’t possess this insight as I call it.  I would be a lot less insulted. A lot less hurt.  A more peaceful human being within myself.  

Unfortunately, this “gift” isn’t something I can control at will nor at all.  When I have this insight it is too often spontaneous and I can no more stop it from coming than I could jump over the moon.  It’s in my face.  It’s in my every word.  It’s in my thoughts. It’s the expression upon my face.

To not tell the person I care about that it exists would be like watching them drown and I would do nothing to save them.  I couldn’t nor wouldn’t do that.  That is why almost every time I swallow the hurt, pain and insults accompanying this insight (along with those emotions is my logical capability)isn’t hoping the person grabs the possibility and runs with the opportunity it presents to think outside the prescribed box and benefit themselves or others.

So all I want to say today is assuming I am right is a safe bet because that my friends, is no assumption, odds are so are you!

That is The Way I See It here in Jackson!

K